Small changes.


Hey, you.  You know how you spend so much time with yourself you don't notice when you've changed.  Not in one of those oh, she's changed kind of ways.  I mean, if you do notice that about yourself though, maybe you should take a step back and reexamine what's going on.  No, what I'm talking about is how I was outside in our back garden with Rosi and Sanne.  And we were looking at where we could hang a clothes line.  The only post on one end belonged to the neighbors' trellis.  I saw the neighbor at her window, washing dishes at the kitchen sink, made eye contact, and just waltzed right up to her, calling over the fence asking if it would be okay for us to tie our line there.  And she smiled and nodded in assent.


That was an action I wouldn't characterise as me.  Going up to a neighbor and asking them outright for a "favour."  However small this might seem, this tiny thing is something that would have, at one time, worried me and caused me extreme anxiety to muster up the courage to approach a stranger.  Or I would have asked someone else to ask for me.  But today I didn't feel that.  I did it, and it felt fine, and it was fine, and I thought nothing of it.  Until now.  Now I see that little things add up to a new, big changes.

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  1. Hey, you, too. Morning, Marion, if it's still morning there.
    Your neighbour, I'm sure, would also grant you something else... Yea verily and forsooth, you did spell both 'characterise' and 'favour' the right way!
    In all things Marion, I sense you to be a traveller. Hope you have a great week!

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  2. This is so incredibly neat and true and I just love that you've written this.

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  3. I know exactly how this feels! Every word. I think I've also recently gone through the same sort of change, and it is indeed wonderful. :)

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  4. oh, I would be petrified of going and asking like that. It's so silly but the shy-ness overtakes me in such situations. Not even mentioning calling strangers ON THE PHONE. sweating palms for half of the day. and I call myself a 24 year old.

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    1. Yeah, still dread talking on the phone always, beh.

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    2. I agree so much about calling strangers on the phone! The worst.

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  5. I agree so much with this! Those small actions used to seem so impossibly large, but if you chip away at the fear/hesitancy long enough, even though it doesn't seem to do much at the time, one day the ice breaks, and it's so rewarding, isn't it?
    p.s. Those photos are gorgeous! Did you use any kind of filter on them or is your backyard just that pretty?

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    1. These were actually taken in a park in London! And I used some custom filters in a program called ToyCamera AnalogColor.

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    2. Thanks for the info on the pictures!

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  6. Hopefully, I'll get there soon. I still get very anxious about situations like that but I know I'm getting better at dealing with them.

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    1. Just gotta take things day by day :]

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  7. I've found myself making the same small changes. I still get anxious at times about silly things but I'm finding that it happens less and less. It's nice. I'm proud of you for asking your neighbor for a favor. That sounds like a really nice thing, a little human interaction that might have otherwise never happened.

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